GUMNAAM

Har koi tumhara hissa mangta hai
Sab lete hi jaate hai
Kabhi sochte bhi nahi ki
Koi kitna de sakta hai
Shayad kismet main gavana hi likha hai
Paana nahi.
Umar k saath ab gumm se gaye hai hum
Ek kinara doodh k, sone ka mann karta hai. 
Sochte thei kabhi bade kaam karein ge hum

Doosro mein butt'te butt'te apna vajood hi kho chuke hai hum

Lagta hai poorane dosto se mil kar kabhi kabhi

Shayad bacha hai thoda sa hissa baaki mujh main kahi

Par itna aage nikal aaye hai ab

Ki usse doodhna ab mushkil lagta hai

Beet jaaye gi ab baaki ki bhi zindagi

Kya farak parta hai

Kaafi to beet gayi hai aise

Kal ka kise pata hai. 

LOOK INSIDE

 
We live in this silly world ,
where we long for happiness and some fun.
Caught in the life's web with all that we have and
doing the things that should be done .
Make us want to come out of our shells
but wonder how its done.

Asking no one the questions that arise,
deep inside ,inside our minds.
Maybe that is why life comes as a suprise.
But when all this comes to an end,
is where the new life begin.
Then everything comes out clear ,
all the struggles and confusions comes to an end .

So what you should always keep ,
is the faith inside that's really deep .
Cause faith is what takes
you across
all the highest mountains and the sea so deep.

Nothing.......

So many times I wonder to myself if I had the little more emancipation ever since juvenile year would I be a different person . It some times feel so claustrophobic that I just want to break free from all the shackles and walk away ..........Why do we need to do things in a certain way only .......just because everyone says its right . Why do we feel the need to make others happy when we are sad inside ,why do we procreate when we are not mentally prepared to nurture it ,why do all wrong things seems right ,why do I feel a sadness when everything out side is so festive and happy .What is it that I really want ? Why am I scared to answer this question for myself ,is it so hard .........I just the part of me just becomes quite and give me peace for sometime.

THOUGHTS.....

It is so vibrant in my mind,tempting,secret,supposedly delicious and just one inch too far from me to sink my teeth into......Its so edgy that the more i don't act on it makes it grows stronger .

"Nothing fixes a thing so intensely as the wish to forget it"-Michel de Montaigne.

Nothing in this world is as tasty as the cookie you can't have .but sometimes you need to appreciate that you live in a world where something as wonderful as cookie exist.
Admire them all but eat one at a time.LOL.....

I guess the promises that you make with yourself are hardest to keep.....but I have to be stronger than this and keep this one .....God give me strength.....and one more thing dear God if you are on to it ......take that twinge away too.

Thoughts

My life ....is it really mine ......I often ask myself .Busy with the chores ,dealing with the daily troubles and stretching the day to the fullest to accomplish one more thing for others yet the work keeps on piling one over the other.......makes me question what am I doing with my life ...is it really worth it....does anyone even cares....makes me run for an easy escape ......something to make me numb.....something to make the pain less painful........something to make the demons in my mind rest for sometime......something which will burn my throat yet numb my mind so well .
Maybe its the spirit that is talking now but I have tried to find ways to distract me at the end of the day,but all things go through the same route , which makes me question my own morality is this what I am actually looking for . I think I need to look harder to find that distraction which will keep me going. Though , I am very sure this distraction is no living being or thing.....its inside me. I just have to find a way . Its just that I don't know how?
For people who are trying to understand me ...I meant no harm .......I myself didn't know what I wanted ,or maybe I do ,or maybe I am too scared to want it . My head is heavy and my eyes are sore and I am tired to my core .....I just need .......nothing .....nothing at all.....just being alone with nothing in my head so that I can sleep .....sleep for ever.

U

THERE IS A PART OF ME

THAT I HIDE FROM ALL ,

THERE IS A PART OF ME

WHICH HAS A LONGING SOUL,

THERE IS A PART OS ME

WHICH IS NOW BLACK AS COAL.

I LET U IN

I DID A SIN

I FEEL ASHAMED

I CAN'T BEAR THE PAIN

U FOOLED ME

U USED ME

U DEEPLY HURT A PART OF ME

THE DAY I SHOWED U A PART OF ME

Sunset in the hills

Sitting on a rock with my eyes closed,

Feeling the ardour and the breeze along.

Slowly the warmth softened on my face,

I opened my eyes to a miracle mundane.

It glowed like fire yet mellowed within,

Ascent earth felt like a bunk beneath,

waiting for the jaded soldier to sleep.

Melting away in the evening sky ,

I try to capture the trance alive.

In moments the magic faded in the air ,

Mesmerised 'n' appeased I just stood there.